For most of my life I hid what was most unique about me because I seriously thought there was something very wrong with me. When I shared things I knew that were beyond my age or life experience as a young child usually with my mom or other members of my family, they always wanted to know "How" I knew it. This is such an old story I can't even remember specific examples. Well, I could never explain how stuff just popped into my head which often made people really angry, particularly my mom who argued with me again and again about how someone must have told me or I read it somewhere (Really mom, I couldn't even read yet.) After many negative and often humiliating encounters, I learned to keep my mouth shut and pretend I was just like everyone else. For decades.
Weirdly though, most people could see through my little act. I'd get teased at work about being one of those people who meditate or don't watch television. People were always asking me about what I wrote in my journal every day.
Eventually I learned to live a double life of sorts. I had friends that were full on woo-woo, artists or free spirited. I also had friends that were high achieving, well educated and successful in the material world. I could hang in both worlds very easily because I was both. Still am. That I think is the whole point. My dream was to balance and integrate the polarization of these inner and outer worlds. I wanted inner peace and spiritual fulfillment AND outer success in the form of a materially and abundant life.
And so I created AnuBel. A magical flying goat who says true peace, fulfillment and prosperity is born out of the balance of opposites. Logic and free flowing, dark and light, masculine and feminine, scientific fact and intuition, doing and being, serious and fun, ebb and flow, old and new, vision and action, thinking and feeling, and on and on it can go.
That's how we get to the really juicy stuff in life. We hold opposing views in our minds. From that we start to see new ways to connect ideas that never seemed related before. That's real creativity and when the real magic begins.