From Scapegoat to G.O.A.T. Dreamer
Day Dreamer, Night Dreamer and overall believer that "...life is but a dream."
"We don't know how you do what you do, but it seems like magic." I've heard this many times throughout my life. "What you touch seems to turn to gold." or, "I feel inspired when I'm around you."
Ideas and creativity come to me easily and naturally. Intuition guides my every move. People tell me I have good energy. I have insights and dream visions for the highest potential of people and situations. This is my secret sauce. Sharing it with others is my passion.
I struggled for most of my life with my gifts because I didn't understand them. I wanted to be like everyone else. So the less I accepted myself, the more I was rejected and taken advantage of by others. Honestly, the sustained narcissistic abuse I have experienced in my life, though deeply painful, ultimately gave me the fuel to love myself more.
I created AnuBel while navigating the turbulence of facing my own shadow side and healing what felt like a bottomless pit of pain.
Believing in my dreams, giving voice to my creative essence, creating, connecting with others on soulful levels and trusting my intuition are what kept me going throughout my own journey.
Prior to embarking on this journey, I had arrived at a point where I was envious of my own clients since I was using my natural talents and acquired skills to help them achieve their dreams while seriously neglecting my own. I had co-dependent and people pleasing tendencies and also at that time some serious blockages to self love that I needed to heal and bring into balance.
The adventure of creating this work was quite amazing. When I took that initial leap of faith, I was supported by life in the most unexpected and unusual ways. Using my love currency, I kept going even during the challenging times and always landed on my feet.
I was motivated by a desire to reach the end of my life without regrets for settling for comfort or security and never going for what I really wanted. My life looked pretty good on the outside yet it did not feel great on the inside. I was not yet fulfilled. Rather, I had spent far too much time in my life as the scapegoat taking on the projections of other people's dark emotional crap and confusing it as my own. I loved to cheer on others to achieve their potential as it is quite natural for me (my love currency). Yet until I developed the strength to have good balance and boundaries, I often attracted people with whom I created unbalanced relationships.
The adventure of life is a creative one filled with highs, lows and in-between for all of us. One thing is for certain, life is going to unfold anyway, so we might as well be on a adventure of our own choosing rather than just letting life happen to us. Believing in ourselves and never giving up on our dreams is actually the secret ingredient to achieving them. Otherwise we might end up in someone else's nightmare!
In earlier versions of myself, I spent decades in financial services fulfilling various roles overseeing national marketing campaigns and product launches that yielded breakthroughs and significant growth for employers and clients.
I believe we are currently in the midst of a major shift in consciousness for humanity whereby we need to refocus our attention on our love currency first, then the money currency can follow. The old structures created in fear and survival consciousness for money are falling away in favor of more evolved systems and structures created for the benefit of all.
I know from my own experiences that facing significant changes requires courage and an entirely new perspective that can feel wobbly for a while. We've all got the old programs and conditioning to work through plus some stale emotions.
I was a marketing executive for decades working for Fortune 100 and 500 financial services companies, then ventured out on my own as a consultant. I've worked at startups and owned a direct marketing agency. As a certified life coach, I have worked with artists, executives, business owners, and teams to help them achieve their next level dream or higher version of themselves.
I hold Bachelor of Arts degree from UCLA, Master of Arts degree in Transpersonal Psychology from John F. Kennedy University and am a Certified Life Coach through the International Coach Federation.